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Earth hour. One hour. Even thought it is soon April in Sweden it is still rather dark. Tonight there is time change. Summer time.

I honestly feel happy. Light.

There is something rare and unique about Nordic-Scandinavian climate. The contrast. The darkness contra brightness. Darkness in the north part of Sweden wintertime versus total light in summertime. Strange miracle.

Something typical Swedish is that you cannot show that you are happy. I easily get happy for something simple like good weather. Emeticons like 🙂 are ok. But not in real life. If you show happiness you are screwed. Twice, at least. I do not how this can be changed and I do not understand this. I always feel good if I something good happens and I honestly admit that I almost never feel jealous. If , I get a slight feeling I easily manage that. I really don´t know how. Maybe, I hide, push away that feeling because I don´t like it.  And I think of it a home instead. Jealousy is ugly.

How to manage feelings is really concerning life. Personal development. How to lead yourself (might sound strange) is a challenge. To choose right path in life. Left or right side driving?

Biology is not fair. The laws of biology are sometimes cruel like different incurable diseases. Biology is also very beautiful. I think I tried to catch the beauty of nature in the poem I wrote. A feeling I had.

To be honest I feel very embarrassed to write poems in public because they are so private. I write so nobody will understand but me. However, I have learnt myself not to be embarrassed. I try my very best. To leave comfort zones.

Tranströmer, a very famous poet passed away this week. I feel sad about that. But his poems are vivid and will always be. Poetry is so beautiful. Can make me shed a tear. Or two.

My very best to you.

Anna

 

Overwhelmed by a dive in salty water;

a taste that never disappears in your eyes.

 

Crystal clear fractal formations;

make unpredictable chemistry.

 

Key to life.

 

Eternally memorized,

like a shadow of your reflection.

 

Slowly moving; slowly fading; slowly watching a new future horizon.

 

Where treetops burst,

– from chilly to eternal –

where winter turns into a new season,

where new life is born.

 

Change.

 

In theory?

 

 

 

Hi there. I have a day off so I continue to write. Long time ago I wrote a poem. This is what I wrote this morning. I am getting closer to the end of my book. Always difficult since I always try to find perfection.

Try to think that perfection is not always right. But I love the feeling when something is completed. That is the best personal reward I ever can get.

To be honest, I have started to think both in Swedish and in English. I write my diary in English to reach as many as possible. My book will be in Swedish, however. Maybe, and most probably, I will write my next book in English.

Stockholm is beautiful today. A day with a lot of sun. Time to refuel your D-vitamine. Good for your bone and skin.

Wishing you a very pleasant day!

 

Lots of love from Anna

Tonight I made dinner from a recipe I got from sweet friends. Finally, I made dinner. Long time ago. Fresh. Really cross cooking. Couldn´t find petit calamars so you have to use your fantasy. Tasty dinner. I enjoy cooking a lot.

Bonne soirée,

Anna