Author: Anna

Dear diary. Today has been a very beautiful day. A little different from usual. Weather has been wonderful. Beautiful day, autumn day. I have worked on my book. I have thought about my background and the fact that I have been very discriminated in my own country where I am grown up. My way to handle this has been to not to think to much about it. I have focused on my own life and I have tried to work on what I want to do with my life.

Lappish people are considered as “zigenare” in Sweden. At least according to a medical doctor (MD) I have talked to. I have thought a lot about what this, so called, MD told me. It says a lot about herself. In France I learnt a word “pejorative”. That is exactly what described what this MD is talking about. She puts herself higher than other humans. This is not ok. At an intellectual level it is awkward how she considers herself.

I always treat people with respect, if I get respect. That is very sound and should be mutual. I don´t think lappish people in north part of Sweden know what Sweden is turning into. I don´t think they understand that 17th century still exists. Where lappish people are put into cold water until they do what the Swedish government tell them what to do. This is today. This is true. Human beings should be treated with equal rights. This is not Sweden today. Maybe it will not be. Maybe we just have to accept that this is todays society.

That is why I choose to spend time on my own. Because I am discriminated due to my lappish background. My next thing to do is to make “lappskojs”. That is something I often had for lunch at school in Enåker but I never liked it but I had it anyway.

Sweden is indeed in need of integration. Sweden and Lappland are still two very different countries.

I am still resting a little and soon maybe, I will pick up running again. Perhaps tomorrow. The evening is beautiful and I share here with you some photos from todays walk with my sweetest, sweetest darlings.

Anna

Hi there! I just needed some time to reflect before I could start write here again. I liked Hässelbyloppet a lot and I think I have some runners addict because I wanted to run today. However, I think it is better to recover. It is going to be beautiful weather tomorrow, so maybe I will profit from that. There is nothing better than running or other forms of exercise to clear your mind.

I reminded myself that it was a long time ago since I wrote a poem. I thought a little today and this is what came up:

Timeless

Running against time is a true challenge to life.

Nature is so fine,

sometimes I wish it could be mine.

Why is the unachievable the most desirable of all?

Questions of life.

This was a tribute to nature. When I run I somehow “breath” nature. I watch leaves changing colors, I see the water, people walking and talking, children playing etcetera. These last weeks have been so beautiful, the weather has been lovely. So that is why I like to run even though I feel some muscle pain.

To have the right diet is important. I feel bad having candy. I know I should´t. But I need candy when I write. That is my treat. I like my book a lot. And I hope my readers will like it. It really is a feel good and feel bad book. I think I have put at least four years of thinking into it. Today I remembered when I started to write. How difficult it was to find a way to write. I have developed a lot. I have also learnt to write both in English and Swedish at the same time. It was so difficult this summer. I don´t understand why.

Now I only have to read it again and make small changes, and then I am done. It feels good.

Have a pleasant evening!

Anna