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Yes. That is true. It is autumn. I almost thought that it was going to get minus degrees today, but it started to rain instead. Ok, enough about weather. What is happening in my life? I feel a little empty to be honest. I will never be ready with writing of my book, but finally I have submitted. I had to let it go out of my hands.

I feel empty and I have put years of work and thoughts into it. At the end I have struggled with Swedish language. I found an old dictionary that I had and I used it a lot. Old words. Words that I have forgotten. But should I use them if they are not used today? However, I don´t like when words are forgotten. A language loses its diversity.

Right now reading magazines are fine. To follow the trends this autumn. Then, my project will be to read a book with good Swedish. And with a good story. I will read from a different perspective now. I am also thinking of sport. I miss running. It has been so beautiful out doors but I have to continue with an indoor activity. Still thinking about trying tennis.

Ok. Small thoughts about my daily life.

Anna

Dear diary. Today has been a very beautiful day. A little different from usual. Weather has been wonderful. Beautiful day, autumn day. I have worked on my book. I have thought about my background and the fact that I have been very discriminated in my own country where I am grown up. My way to handle this has been to not to think to much about it. I have focused on my own life and I have tried to work on what I want to do with my life.

Lappish people are considered as “zigenare” in Sweden. At least according to a medical doctor (MD) I have talked to. I have thought a lot about what this, so called, MD told me. It says a lot about herself. In France I learnt a word “pejorative”. That is exactly what described what this MD is talking about. She puts herself higher than other humans. This is not ok. At an intellectual level it is awkward how she considers herself.

I always treat people with respect, if I get respect. That is very sound and should be mutual. I don´t think lappish people in north part of Sweden know what Sweden is turning into. I don´t think they understand that 17th century still exists. Where lappish people are put into cold water until they do what the Swedish government tell them what to do. This is today. This is true. Human beings should be treated with equal rights. This is not Sweden today. Maybe it will not be. Maybe we just have to accept that this is todays society.

That is why I choose to spend time on my own. Because I am discriminated due to my lappish background. My next thing to do is to make “lappskojs”. That is something I often had for lunch at school in Enåker but I never liked it but I had it anyway.

Sweden is indeed in need of integration. Sweden and Lappland are still two very different countries.

I am still resting a little and soon maybe, I will pick up running again. Perhaps tomorrow. The evening is beautiful and I share here with you some photos from todays walk with my sweetest, sweetest darlings.

Anna